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Ahhh~~~ its finally the 2 weeks i love most in my semester…mid-sem hols!!hehehe…tho i do have an assignment due midway thru this break…it aint killin my holiday babe..no way jose!

hmm..lets see…my holiday started last friday…with macquarie uni’s ‘conception day’…to sum the day up…its pretty much a day when the whole uni goes wild…ah well…didnt really enjoy it much…coz i went quite late…and it started raining…and i had to get ready for the dinner of all dinners…Annual Dinner N Dance 2005~~!!

well…by getting ready i mean…play pc games a bit…take a shower (bit longer than usual..hehe)…dish-dash a bit…and im good to go =) i really dont like talking bout details…so…again…i’ll try to sum up the night in the simplest form i can think of….ADND 05 was a wonderful night…with great student performances…and a memorable one indeed from my personal point of view…i dont really care about food coz as most might know..i cannot differentiate good tasting food from the bad ones…the most important thing is, i guess, the setting…which was superb (on top of imax theatre..with darling harbour view..what more can i ask for?)…

i was really shocked to be voted as committee person of the year…i really was…i was so shocked that the speech they asked me to give was really incomplete (it was..from my heart tho)…well…i didnt expect it coz i seriusly think so many people deserve it more than i do…my mfest chief…louise, who weathered the intense pressure and delivered mfest 2005…my buddy AJ, who always kept his cool doing mfest stuff and still maintained MSO as the most stabil club…they are just the few names from a long list of deserving people…as for me…i appreciate this award…thank you…and i shall continue to do what i must…for the malaysian community here that are like my family…

well…i also had a few regrets that night…that id rather not mention here…just that everytime i think about them…it makes me sigh… *sigh* (why am i such a shy person??)

so i am the new president of macquarie uni malaysian students’ association…which i dont really feel like celebrating about…coz really…what’s there to celebrate??i know i need to deliver…and not in the best of situations…i do not have the best of starts…plagued by irresponsible and selfish acts of some people…well…at least this is a time when i can tell between true friends and friends that are there just to fulfill their personal ambitions…at least i found comfort in my true friends to give me support…you know who you are…

and lastly…my holiday plans…hmm…this weekend im going down to the city to support team nsw in the national games…doing a bit of this and that and bla3…monday i shall attend Malaysia Night 2005…then the following day i will need to submit an essay…followed by few days of peace…and ending my holiday with a weekend trip to floriade @ canberra (again??)…and a dinner with the high commissioner over there…well…it looks like this blog aint gonna c me for quite awhile…hehehe…thats me for now…signing off…..

-tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu…t-  <-tv end of program sound

huhuhu..i shud b studying now…really…aiyo…y can’t i get myself to start studying???i have a test in couple days time..omg…and i am not really studying…just…sitting…fa dai…doing i dont know wat…kacau2 ppl in msn…what happened to me laa??

maybe…its just my feelings telling me i shud study coz other people is….but at the same time…my biological timers still think its ok to lepak now??s**t…stupid body..u think i am a genius or what meh??aaaaaaaa…must study!!!!

aiiiiiiiii….please come to me oh study mood…i know if u come…even just for awhile…im gonna b able to study like gila…please…give me 1 hour???huhuhuhu…i stare at these notes from the actuarial education company…i think the notes arent interesting enought to encourage me to read it…blame the notes!!yeah!!!that’s it…its the boring interfaced notes that’s holding me back!!blame em!!s**t….just admit that you are lazy laa!! huhuuhu…y am i lazy when it comes to study??why??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

or is it…there’s sumthin disturbing me deep down??sumthin that no one can comprehend, not even me??i wish…hmm…who cares what i wish…

sunny…please study…those actuarial notes are not bad really…hmm…ok…lets give it a try…

well…first…i was freakin busy the past 2 months or so…second…i never had the heart or enough determination to maintain a blog…so, blog…i think this is where the road splits…this is the end…im breaking up with you…wo men fen shou ba…

before i say good bye…a bit of an update here…mfest is finally over…and i dont think i wanna talk bout it coz its gonna take the whole night for me to finish the intro…only thing i wanna mention here, is that mfest had been a great experience, where i learnt about many things, and above all, about friendship.

life is back to normal now…well…not quite…anyway, im spending the first weekend at home since i cant remember when…wow..its so relaxed…and i feel so bored…despite knowing that i have a midterm to study for…

after mfest…ive felt weird…felt…like im missing something…i guess…i missed the best part about doing all the work for mfest…the part where i am with good friends…i guess i miss that most…oh…of coz…the part where i have an excuse to not be studying when i need to (for instance…NOW!!)…hehe…

well, now is AGM season…a season of intense student politics…a season of change…a season of transition…to my friends who are ‘graduating’ from their respecting clubs…may the future bring you more success and happiness…to everyone else…dont forget that in the end…we are all on the same side…

to end this entry…here’s a quote from stephen king…

" You couldn’t get hold of the things you’d done and turn them right again. Such a power was not given to women and men, and that was probably a good thing. Had it been otherwise, people would probably die of old age still trying to rewrite their teens. "

special word for the moment -> righteousness….yeah!!

p/s- ok blog…i think we can give ourselves another chance…i guess we both still need each other =P

p/s (again?)- 3rd season of The OC is out in the US…twistedly awesome!!!yeah!!!

Whoah…how long have i been away??can’t remember….5 weeks?6?GILAAAAA…well…if u recall…in my first post (or was it the 2nd?)…i told u im not good at these blog thingy…and i tend to stop halfway…hahaha…so, its pretty much "expected" eh??expected value… the integration from negative infinity to infinity of x times f(x) for the continuous case…or…the infinite sum of x times f(x) for the descrete case…huhuhuhu…dah sewel agaknyer…

anyways…too many happened…too many…first…i had a visit from sumone…that was probably the most important thing that happened…but…thats about all i can say here…hehehehe….

then…my finals…man…i really really think im gonna fail stat272…only a miracle can save me from not failing…im just preparing myself for the worst now….haih…if i fail…i shall need to extend my course 1 bloody year…yes my friends…UNO…ONE…SATU…YI…and im not gonna start a language class teaching numbers in different language now…ok…one year…huwa huwa huwa….results are to be announced next week..19th july…and guess what…a doctor’s appointment on the 20th…what a coincident…get results…fail…go to doctor…ask for support letter for grade appeal…huhuhuhuhuhu…

i always try to find positivity in me when i face critical problems like my exams…but this time…no matter how hard i search for some comforting factors…i just cant seem to find one…hence…ive resorted to preparing myself to face the facts…and plan my freak-out… *sigh*

owh…a few weeks ago…during the visit of that sumone…i had my glow in the dark cast taken off!!!yeay!!!hoorah!!!well…not really something to cheer too much about…since they replaced it with some sort of special boot for protection…docs say i can walk if i wore the boot…coz it would help ensure that the screw in my left leg wont break…well…i had surgery to remove the screw last week…and surprise surprise…the screw was broken…ah well…docs said that it happens…and they only took out the screw’s head…and the remainder is left in my bone…burried… R.I.P

so now ive begin walking again…without crutches…well…the speed is pretty bad…very2 slow indeed…but nonetheless…thats a progress from walking with crutches…things are much easier now that i am not relying on those crutches…alhamdulillah…i will be back to normal soon…and not long from now…i will be running again…no…not jogging or running on the tracks…never do that….hehehe…running…as in…play basketball…play soccer…waaaa…those good ol’ days….

and so…now im freakin busy with mfest…remember mfest?malaysian fest?first sunday of september?darling harbour?ok…great that u’ve remembered…hehehehe…i hope all this is will be over soon…this year is so tiring for me…with the broken leg…and everything…i mean…the year was already expected to be a hectic one…and then comes in the broken leg…which doubles the ‘tiring effect’…i really really want a good long holiday…at home…in malaysia…hmmm…i hope i get one this year…makkk…nak balikkk….huhuhuhu….forget my plans about spending summer in sydney…i just need the comfort of home…huhuhu…

p/s— im now botak..hahaha…botak head…check out a picture i took half way done ‘botak’ing my head…hehehehe….

Hey all…..to OC fans out there..and not-so OC fans…..here’s a link where u can listen to all the great songs that were featured in the 1st season and 1st half of 2nd season OC series…

Music Heard On The OC….listen to first 4 mix albums from the OC here!!!

u know the songs are very2 nice if u’ve heard them on OC…u wanna download them…but what’s the name of the song?who’s the singer?well..u can probably find out here…so…check out the site eh?!!!chow…   =)

yes…this is the site to be and listen to your favourite OC songs… =)

This is the song from the 2nd season finale of The OC…man…they couldn’t have chosen a better song…here’s the lyrics….you all should try listening to it =)

Song: Hide and Seek    By: Imogen Heap

Where are we?
What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just began to fall
Crop circles in the carpet
Sinking, feeling
Spin me around again
And rub my eyes
This can’t be happening
When busy streets
A mess with people
Would stop to hold their heads heavy
Hide and seek
trains aren’t solving machines
All those years
They were here first
Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before
The takeover
The sweeping insensitivity of this
Still alive
Hide and seek
Trains and sewing machines (you won’t catch me around here)
Blood and tears
They were here first
Mmm, What’d you say? Mmm, That you only meant well
Well of course you did
Mmm, What’d you say? Mmm, That it’s all for the best
Of course it is
Mmm, What’d you say? Mmm, That it’s just what we need
You decided this
Mmm, What’d you say? Mmm… What did she say?
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cutouts
Speak no feeling, no, I don’t believe you
You don’t care a bit, you don’t care a bit
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cutouts
Speak no feeling, no, I don’t believe you
You don’t care a bit, you don’t care a bit
(You don’t care a bit)
Oh, no, you don’t care a bit
Oh, no, you don’t care a bit
Uh-uh, you don’t care a bit
You don’t care a bit
You don’t care a bit

so today…is the 4th week since d injury…time goes by… VERY VERY SLOWLY….but yea…not long to go…just hang in there mohd sunny tan..hang in there…

yesterday was d MSA Treasure Hunt…which was a combination of amazing race and fear factor…all around d macquarie campus!!!!thanx to all d teams that participated…u all are such good sports!!!!yes..this is d first time…n there were flaws here n there…very2 sorry ppl…but this is a learning process…n next year is gonna b better i hope…but hey…everyone had fun…i guess…i know i did (tho just stuck in d base camp)…n soon..we can make it like a reality tv show…muahahahah!!!special thnx to ppl who travelled from city to macquarie in support of this event…u guys are all great!!

anyways…i am supposed to be doing this asgnmnt now…but i haf no mood…really2 no mood to do anything…haih…sunny tan…what are u doin aaa…what r u thinking aaa…huhuhu…

dah dah..cukup merepek…g buat keje g buat keje…isk2…

[[[[[[ so it's thursday again...which marks the beginning of d 2nd week back in macquarie...well...a lot had happened during d first week back...but since i am this very very very lazy person...i did not manage to post anything about them...and since i am a lazy person also...i shall just attempt to summarize the week =P hahaha.. (to those involved in my first week back home...me lazy to post not meaning me not appreciating your involvement...just...lazy to post =) ) ]]]]]]]]   <–the intro

[[[[[[[[[[[ now let me see...me friends from Newcastle came down to Sydney..and gave me a very nice weekend...well...zaizul...farid...harith...n this other friend from canberra...hakim...thanx you all for making my weekend a happy one...sort of remedy to d depression and tension i felt since i came back here...and yea...to epo who tagged along after we ALL spent d nite at his place...WE WILL GO TO NEWCASTLE...yeah!!!!!!!! (because we have wonderful friends there and the place is nice...and partly also coz i haf no money to travel around to...what...melbourne..gold coast...NZ...huhuhu...KERING WEH!!!) ]]]]]]]]] <—-about me weekend

[[[[[[[[ the next day...monday...was first day at skool...when i woke up at around 8+...i realized i have half hour to get ready b4 my friend comes by to help push me (on d wheelchair) to uni...but thats ok...10 minutes b4 830am...i remembered sumthin...ONLINE TEST DUE 9AM!!!!!!....so..10 minutes..10 questions...no preparation...no idea...HANTAM SAJALAH!!!!!huhuhu...so by 830 i was waiting for my friend already...huhuhu..but he didnt come..and was still asleep..huhuhu..(kesian dia xtido buat asgnmnt satu malam)...well...not wanting to miss lecture...i asked my housemate Talat if he could help...and b4 long..we were on our way to class (which was not bad..)  ]]]]]]]] <—-the mayday monday

[[[[[[[[ by the way...i needed someone to push me to uni coz walking on crutches to uni can kill me (tried it)...and d uni cant manage to arrange transportation come monday...well...first day at class...alhamdulillah...tho not all good...its not all bad (from now on ill try to use this positive line..instead of..." *sigh*...not bad..not that good..")...i had to answer to i-dont-knoe-how-many "hey mate...what happened??" or "hey...how are you feeling??"...pheww...tho tired of answering the same, repeated questions...im happy coz it shows ppl are concerned =>  ]]]]]]]]]   <—-back to skool

[[[[[[[[ tuesday was off-day for me...and yesterday...wednesday..d uni began picking me up from my house to anywhere my first lecture is...and picking me up rite after my last class..wherever that is..and sending me back home..that is a great service from my point of view...thanx macquarie...that is a BIG BIG help...lecturers are also all very kind..very helpful...which is just d motivation i need to continue and do my best...given my 'limited resources' ]]]]]]]] <—d rest of d story

~~~~~~ so now…one week down…3 to go…i hope i am gonna recover soon…and will not need to trouble people anymore…being like this…surely have made me realize how d health we enjoy everyday…is a very2 precious gift from God…and how we tend to take it for granted…finally…there’s still a long way to go…i hope i can just hang in there…just…hang in there… ~~~~~~

wow..how long has it been since ive posted?well..guess what…i am posting from MY ROOM in MY HOUSE in MY UNI!!!!hehehe..i sound happy??actually..its more like mixed feelings rather than happy…

i went to the hospital yesterday…for my appointment…and changed my cast from d super heavy,ugly looking,plaster of paris cast…to a super light, cool, glow-in-d-dark cast =) (yes…it GLOWS IN THE DARK!!!)…well..before i go on..i shud thank a few peepz for helping me with yesterday…special thanx to JX n sheila for giving me a lift to d hospital…n also kak min for accompanying me back…

i saw my left foot for d first time since d injury…well…its still pretty much d same..gud job by d doctors…n then i looked for the operation wound…n i found it…it was HUGE!!!20 stiches i guess…here’s a pic of it…

scary huh…well…that was d half hour or so of ‘masa bermesra dengan kakiku’…n after that…d nurse treated the wound a bit and d physio put on d new cast…and gud bye to my leg for d next 4 weeks…but now since ive changed to this lighter cast..i guess life has to go on…and so i am back here in macquarie..preparing myself for d remainder of my semester…oh yea…to grace tan…thanx for sending me back to macquarie =)

well…now i feel…frustrated of my current condition…i feel…uni pressure has now magnified…i feel…life is so much harder and that every corner of it is pressing me…and i dont know if i can ever survive this semester…

im beginning to miss malaysian hall n its wonderful ppl…coz in times like this…i dont know…i guess the feeling of being home is just what i want…i knoe i haf so many caring friends here…just…i guess…for d crucial part of my life…i haf been somehow attached to malaysian hall…n now im leaving it to face the reality that had been shun from my face while i was in malaysian hall…huhuhuhu…

is it true God never gives His servants tests that they can’t handle?n the stronger d person d bigger d test?is this God’s test for me?or is this God’s punishment?coz really…i dont feel strong at all…please…test me if You wish…but supply me with strength to face it…